written in the spur of the moment

You see, I’ve learned something today … you can never go back in time.

As simple and corny as this may sound … I urge you to delve deeper into this topic with me today:

That night when you decide to make him your first (that jerk you now hate but thought was so amazing). Years later you finally find that special someone and wish you would’ve waited and been a virgin until your wedding day. Or that night you went to a party and got some girl drunk, slept with her, later on you find out you have herpes or you find out she’s pregnant … you can’t go back.

That day when you decided to make a left turn instead of a right turn to go home, and crash the car or you get mugged walking or beat up, you can’t go back in time and take the other route home.

That day when you say something or you do something horrible to an innocent person or unsuspecting victim or loved one; you can never take that pain back and the guilt of injuring the innocent lingers in your soul, in your conscience tormenting you forever.

That time when you had a chance to assert yourself, when you had the chance to succeed and achieve your goals back in high school, back in college but you didn’t, instead you took the wrong road … you can’t go back in time and change the path you’ve taken.

That time when your grandmother calls you over to her house to visit, to come over and play cards … but instead you go to a bar with your friends … Later on that night your cell phone rings and you get the message that your grandmother suffered a fatal heart attack and is now dead. Those whimpering words from your cousin informing you of the tragedy force warm tears down your pale cheek as you try to swallow that ball of agony, regret and guilt down your throat … You realize that you can’t go back and spend the last minutes of Grandmas life together with her.

So what is my point? I’m not quite sure if there is a point to this yet, maybe just a rush of emotions provoking me to reveal some feelings.

Life is so complicated, yet it is so simple.

Anyone has the abilities to become great, anyone can change the world … it just takes one person to do so … yet the decisions we make (even the smallest of decisions) like making a right turn on a random street … like taking this highway instead of that highway can prove to be a fatal decision. The crippled patient asks himself “Man, if I just would’ve taken the long way home I would’ve never ended up in this wheel chair”.

So you see the smallest decision you make may lead to dire consequences …

We are imperfect creatures incapable of making the correct decisions 100% of the time.

Morrissey once said “Does the body rule the mind or does the mind rule the body … I dunno”. It is hard to make morale decisions in life, like when you see an opportunity that will benefit you yet in a not so morale way.

Like sleeping with the girl who has passed out from an all night alcohol binge, like taking the 20 dollars the person in front of you has dropped etc …

My response to this quandary is rather simplistic yet philosophically profound: Be the change you wish to see in the world. Think about that for a second, think about what it means to you and if you agree with this.

Also, I suggest to live your life, live it now, hurry up and enjoy your emotions for when you die you will never be angry again, you will never experience hunger again, you’ll never know what it is like to be freezing your ass off, you’ll never feel disappointed ever again so enjoy these feelings whether they be good or bad because you will never feel them again once you are dead do you understand what I mean?

I urge you to learn from your mistakes because in this life you never get a second chance to go back in time. We are scoundrels all of us, capable of the most horrible crimes, yet we are also capable of the beautiful gestures of love, mercy and goodness … As they say in psychology “there are no such things as accidents” and I believe everything happens for a reason, we all have our path … it is up to us to decide do you want to make that left turn or that right turn?